today was really shitty. my bf and I are now always together, after a year of long distance, and let me tell you it is not easy. sometimes I wish I was back in montreal and sometimes he wishes I was back in montreal. it's hard to find things to do on my own here, I don't know anybody and we're in his parents house for the moment, so I don't feel especially comfortable lounging around their house. So it's hard for me to just go out and get a life here. I so wish he could understand that. And that it's hard for me to be here, I don't know how most things work. it sucks.
Trust me, if I were back home, I would always be out, visiting my friends, and whatnot, but here, what can I do to not always be in his way? Go hiking in the mountains alone? go downtown do have a cup of coffee alone and read a book? go to the island here nearby and have a picknick alone?
I understand that we can't always do everything together, I feel that here it's just so hard for me to go out alone... Today I really feel like I belong nowhere. I just want to get out of people's way. it sucks.