I admit it, in the past months I have been increasingly often having dreams about being pregnant / having a baby. It's only gotten real worse since a friend of mine is pregnant (3rd month). Sometimes I'm in the hospital ans am holding my babies in my arms (that time it was twins), or I just learned I am pregnant, or like I dreamt last night, I'm in the hospital about to give birth.
The thing is, when I dream I'm pregnant, it often comes with this incredible feeling of unconditional love, and when I wake up I'm really sad to find a flat tummy...
I'm 25, and haven't finished my studies yet. I want to work a bit before getting pregnant, and have money and be older...
I really don't get it. Stupid biological clock.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Thursday, January 17, 2008
R.I.P. Elvisse
Our family dog died today. We got her just before my 12th birthday. I still remember how cute and cudly she was. She was a really good dog. She always knew when we were sad or hurt and would instictively come up to us to cheer us up. In my teen years, she made sure I got up in the morning if my mom was working. She was a real part of our family. She was a companion to me when my parents divorced and was there to support me throughout my teenaged sorrows. When I moved out, she came to visit my new appartment and seemed so curious about it. Even though my boyfriend didn't really like her, she would just wag her tail and be all over him whenever he came over to my mom's place.
I know this probably sounds stupid, but frankly I don't care. Last year, when I was home for the holidays, as I was leaving she sat down in front of the door. I bent down to give her a hug and she just put her head in my neck and was really quiet for the longest time. It's like she knew it was the last time I would see her.
She had a tumor in her lungs and had been having a hard time breathing for the past couple of days. She was put to sleep this afternoon.
Now I really regret not having been home over the holidays.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
I WANT A PET!!!
I'm feeling pretty lonely since the bf is away in Cologne during the week, and have been thinking about getting a pet. Last night I had a dream in which I had bought a really cute hamster and had named him Pouki. He was really cute!
I WANT ONE OF THESE!
Monday, January 07, 2008
Happy New Year!
I came back last night and was so exhausted that I slept 12 hours in a row!
My holidays were a bit stressful. My boyfriend was ill from December 25th to January 31st, which really drove me crazy ( he had a really high fever and nothing would lower it). The first night he was sick I didn't sleep, taking his temperature every hour, waking him up to give him aspirin or a cold bath... Nothing was helping.
The following days weren't so bad, but he was really weak and couldn't eat anything. Then his mom was totally stressing us out because we missed the family dinner at her place on the 26th. When my boyfriend was finally better, she suggested friday evening, that we should come over and sleep theree and stay until saturday. The thing is, I was leaving on Sunday and because my bpyfriend was sick, there were a lot of stuff we wanted to do we hadn't done, and would probably do on friday night, like go out, or to the theater, or meat up with friends we had cancelled before... On top of that, sleeping there on Friday would have meant losing half of saturday (she lives outside of cologne). On top of that, we know she hates cooking for people and having guests, so we thought she would be happy if we invited her here instead, I would cook for her, and she didn't need to pay for wine. We told her she could chose any other evening, we would love to have her over, and she could see where her son is living know. Well, she got insulted that we didn't want to come over on the date she chose, under the conditions she chose, she got pissed off and called it all off.
We then got presents through the mail with a card saying " if you don't want to come to the presents, at least the presents come to you". How mature. And she made sure to leave the price on my present. I don't know if it's the same here, but back home this is really impolite.
Besides that, we had a great time at the boyfriend's dad's and stepmom's place. We had a great Christmas evening there the 24th. As usual, I was showered wth gifts and love. These people are so generous. We also went with the whole family to a spanish restaurant, which was really nice.
On the 31st we had a beautiful view on the Dome of Cologne and watched the fireworks on the shores of the Rhine. We visited my boyfriend's Granny on the first and she told us funny stories of when he was little. On my last day in Cologne, I was really spoiled by my boyfriend: we went shopping the whole day, got new shoes, clothes, a necklace and in the evening we went to this great italian restaurant, and then came home and watched a movie with a good bottle of wine. Needless to say, it was difficult leaving yesterday...
On the other hand, I was happy to be in my lovely little nest here in Berlin today. The boyfriend will be here on Friday night for the weekend.
What are your new year's resolutions? Mine are simple: write a good bachelor paper, live in a more healthy way, and I mean that physically and spiritually: more exercise, better quality foods, less stress, less work, less worrying, more yoga and meditation :)
I am going to start my meditating by meditating on my vacation in march :) We're probably flying to marocco for 10 days, but still looking around for other good last minute deals.
2008, here I come!!
My holidays were a bit stressful. My boyfriend was ill from December 25th to January 31st, which really drove me crazy ( he had a really high fever and nothing would lower it). The first night he was sick I didn't sleep, taking his temperature every hour, waking him up to give him aspirin or a cold bath... Nothing was helping.
The following days weren't so bad, but he was really weak and couldn't eat anything. Then his mom was totally stressing us out because we missed the family dinner at her place on the 26th. When my boyfriend was finally better, she suggested friday evening, that we should come over and sleep theree and stay until saturday. The thing is, I was leaving on Sunday and because my bpyfriend was sick, there were a lot of stuff we wanted to do we hadn't done, and would probably do on friday night, like go out, or to the theater, or meat up with friends we had cancelled before... On top of that, sleeping there on Friday would have meant losing half of saturday (she lives outside of cologne). On top of that, we know she hates cooking for people and having guests, so we thought she would be happy if we invited her here instead, I would cook for her, and she didn't need to pay for wine. We told her she could chose any other evening, we would love to have her over, and she could see where her son is living know. Well, she got insulted that we didn't want to come over on the date she chose, under the conditions she chose, she got pissed off and called it all off.
We then got presents through the mail with a card saying " if you don't want to come to the presents, at least the presents come to you". How mature. And she made sure to leave the price on my present. I don't know if it's the same here, but back home this is really impolite.
Besides that, we had a great time at the boyfriend's dad's and stepmom's place. We had a great Christmas evening there the 24th. As usual, I was showered wth gifts and love. These people are so generous. We also went with the whole family to a spanish restaurant, which was really nice.
On the 31st we had a beautiful view on the Dome of Cologne and watched the fireworks on the shores of the Rhine. We visited my boyfriend's Granny on the first and she told us funny stories of when he was little. On my last day in Cologne, I was really spoiled by my boyfriend: we went shopping the whole day, got new shoes, clothes, a necklace and in the evening we went to this great italian restaurant, and then came home and watched a movie with a good bottle of wine. Needless to say, it was difficult leaving yesterday...
On the other hand, I was happy to be in my lovely little nest here in Berlin today. The boyfriend will be here on Friday night for the weekend.
What are your new year's resolutions? Mine are simple: write a good bachelor paper, live in a more healthy way, and I mean that physically and spiritually: more exercise, better quality foods, less stress, less work, less worrying, more yoga and meditation :)
I am going to start my meditating by meditating on my vacation in march :) We're probably flying to marocco for 10 days, but still looking around for other good last minute deals.
2008, here I come!!
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Merry Christmas John!!
Dear Rat,
I wish you merry Christmas and all the best for 2008!!
May you travel a lot and eventually travel to Germany!
Just for you :)
xx
Frankie
I wish you merry Christmas and all the best for 2008!!
May you travel a lot and eventually travel to Germany!
Just for you :)
xx
Frankie
Joyeux Noel!
À tous ceux que je vois régulièrement et ceux que non, à ma famille, mes amis, mes chums de filles si loin mais pourtant si proches, je vous souhaite un très joyeux Noel québécois. je suis dans le salon de mon chum, entourée de chandelles, une assiette de biscuits faits maison sur la table est à mes cotés... La dinde est au four, la sauce aux atokas est prete... Et la musique de Noel québécoise joue à fond la planche - un vrai p'tit Québec à Cologne...
23 décembre - Beau Dommage
J'ai dans la tête un vieux sapin, une crèche en d'ssous
Un Saint-Joseph avec une canne en caoutchouc
Était mal faite pis j'avais fret
Quand je r'venais d'passer trois heures dans un igloo
Qu'on avait fait, deux ou trois gars, chez Guy Rondou
J'ai d'vant les yeux, quand j'suis heureux, une sorte de jeu
Qu'on avait eu une sorte de grange avec des bœufs
La même année où j'ai passé
Le temps des fêtes avec su'a tête une tuque d'hockey
Parce que j'voulais me faire passer pour Doug Harvey
{Refrain :}
23 décembre, Joyeux Noël, Monsieur Côté
Salut ti-cul, on se r'verra, le sept janvier
J'ai sur le cœur un jour de l'an où mes parents
Pensant bien faire, m'avaient habillé en communiant
Chez ma grand-mère c'était mon père
Qui s'déguisait en Père-Noël pour faire accroire
Que les cadeaux ça v'nait pas tout de Dupuis Frères
Ça m'tente des fois d'aller la voir pis d'y parler
Fée des étoiles, j'peux-tu avoir un autre hockey ?
J'ai perdu l'mien, beau sans-dessein
J'l'ai échangé contre des photos où on voit rien
Une fille de dos qui s'cache les fesses avec les mains
Bon, ca pis du Francois Pérusse, que voulez-vous, les classiques changent jamais!!
Joyeux Noel la gang!
23 décembre - Beau Dommage
J'ai dans la tête un vieux sapin, une crèche en d'ssous
Un Saint-Joseph avec une canne en caoutchouc
Était mal faite pis j'avais fret
Quand je r'venais d'passer trois heures dans un igloo
Qu'on avait fait, deux ou trois gars, chez Guy Rondou
J'ai d'vant les yeux, quand j'suis heureux, une sorte de jeu
Qu'on avait eu une sorte de grange avec des bœufs
La même année où j'ai passé
Le temps des fêtes avec su'a tête une tuque d'hockey
Parce que j'voulais me faire passer pour Doug Harvey
{Refrain :}
23 décembre, Joyeux Noël, Monsieur Côté
Salut ti-cul, on se r'verra, le sept janvier
J'ai sur le cœur un jour de l'an où mes parents
Pensant bien faire, m'avaient habillé en communiant
Chez ma grand-mère c'était mon père
Qui s'déguisait en Père-Noël pour faire accroire
Que les cadeaux ça v'nait pas tout de Dupuis Frères
Ça m'tente des fois d'aller la voir pis d'y parler
Fée des étoiles, j'peux-tu avoir un autre hockey ?
J'ai perdu l'mien, beau sans-dessein
J'l'ai échangé contre des photos où on voit rien
Une fille de dos qui s'cache les fesses avec les mains
Bon, ca pis du Francois Pérusse, que voulez-vous, les classiques changent jamais!!
Joyeux Noel la gang!
Friday, December 21, 2007
I'm off!
I'm leaving today for Cologne, to see my wonderful boyfriend and spent Christmas in his family!
I wish you all a merry Christmas and might be blogging from there before new year's.
xxx
me
I wish you all a merry Christmas and might be blogging from there before new year's.
xxx
me
Monday, December 17, 2007
'Tis the season...
I've bought all my Christmas presents, I'm sitting in my living room listening to Christmas songs and just really enjoying it. Last night I was with some friends of mine, and we drank some hot, spicy wine (a german Christmas tradition), ate together and played taboo... It was really nice and relaxing.
Next Friday I'm hoping on the train and finally going to spend two weeks in COlogne with my boyfriend!! We already have plans for Saturday: stay in our pajamas, crank up some Christmas tunes and bake Christmas cookies!!
On the 24th we're at his Dad's and on the 26th at his Mom's, so the 25th we're going to have a north american CHristmas for two, with Turkey and the works! :)
I know it might be cheesy, but I am totally a fan of the holidays. The only thing missing here is the snow... I'm still working on it.
Next Friday I'm hoping on the train and finally going to spend two weeks in COlogne with my boyfriend!! We already have plans for Saturday: stay in our pajamas, crank up some Christmas tunes and bake Christmas cookies!!
On the 24th we're at his Dad's and on the 26th at his Mom's, so the 25th we're going to have a north american CHristmas for two, with Turkey and the works! :)
I know it might be cheesy, but I am totally a fan of the holidays. The only thing missing here is the snow... I'm still working on it.
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
The week's results
This week I have been walking, walking, walking and doing a lot of pilates...
and I lost 0,8 kg (800 grams, or 1.75 pounds)
Eric, my friend who is visiting, has been cooking for me, making my lunches and checking me to see if I really eat up everything he gives me...
So up to now, I have lost 5.5 pounds (2,5 kg) and still have 1.5 pounds to go til Christmas... It'll be difficult, because after Eric leaves, a friend of mine will be visiting from Switzerland and I know no matter how often I tell her "please don't bring any chocolate", I know she'll do it anyways... So I'll pass it on to my friends at a Christmas dinner two days later (Julius don't be mad, I won't give you any, it will be for the others, kay? ;)
Now that's what I call planning!
It's been raining non stop the past days, the weather is mild here. I think I'm going to miss Canada around Christmas time, the snow and all, but at least I'll get to be two whole weeks with my boyfriend. Yay!!
and I lost 0,8 kg (800 grams, or 1.75 pounds)
Eric, my friend who is visiting, has been cooking for me, making my lunches and checking me to see if I really eat up everything he gives me...
So up to now, I have lost 5.5 pounds (2,5 kg) and still have 1.5 pounds to go til Christmas... It'll be difficult, because after Eric leaves, a friend of mine will be visiting from Switzerland and I know no matter how often I tell her "please don't bring any chocolate", I know she'll do it anyways... So I'll pass it on to my friends at a Christmas dinner two days later (Julius don't be mad, I won't give you any, it will be for the others, kay? ;)
Now that's what I call planning!
It's been raining non stop the past days, the weather is mild here. I think I'm going to miss Canada around Christmas time, the snow and all, but at least I'll get to be two whole weeks with my boyfriend. Yay!!
Monday, December 03, 2007
Results
Well, apparently I don't eat often enough and I don't eat enough protein. And I have an appointment after school today in my living room to do pilates...
woo-hoo!
woo-hoo!
Friday, November 30, 2007
KLM and personal trainers...
Howdy ho!
A friend of mine who I used to work with will be visiting me for the next 12 days... And he's a personal trainer, so I guess the next days can't go wrong, right? :)
His trip is horrible. He's flying with KLM and was supposed to leave Montreal at 6:55 PM yesterday, arrive at 7:45 AM in Amsterdam and take a flight at 8:35 to Berlin. Well. His flight from Montreal was delayed 3 HOURS and he missed his connection in Amsterdam, and all day flights are booked, so he has to wait 10 hours in Amsterdam and he'll arrive tonight at 10:05 PM here... That's 12 hours later than originally scheduled arrival time, and what does he get from KLM??
a coupon for one meal in the food court and a coupon for one 5 minute phone call. seriously.
I would expect a voucher, something, but NOT a meal coupon.
Anyways, can't wait till he gets here, I'm really excited about seeing him!
A friend of mine who I used to work with will be visiting me for the next 12 days... And he's a personal trainer, so I guess the next days can't go wrong, right? :)
His trip is horrible. He's flying with KLM and was supposed to leave Montreal at 6:55 PM yesterday, arrive at 7:45 AM in Amsterdam and take a flight at 8:35 to Berlin. Well. His flight from Montreal was delayed 3 HOURS and he missed his connection in Amsterdam, and all day flights are booked, so he has to wait 10 hours in Amsterdam and he'll arrive tonight at 10:05 PM here... That's 12 hours later than originally scheduled arrival time, and what does he get from KLM??
a coupon for one meal in the food court and a coupon for one 5 minute phone call. seriously.
I would expect a voucher, something, but NOT a meal coupon.
Anyways, can't wait till he gets here, I'm really excited about seeing him!
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Ready to Rumble!!
Okay, here is my weekly sport report:
Wednesday - 30 minutes bike
Thursday - 30 minutes bike
Friday - nothing :(
Saturday - walking
Sunday - 30 minutes bike
Monday - 30 minutes bike
Tuesday - walking
And the first results are in!!!
I went in for my weighing today and... I lost 1,7 kg this week (3.75 pounds!!)
This challenge is going to be easier thatn I thought.. Not!
Let's make it a bit more challengin, shall we?
Instead of 5 pounds till Christmas, it will be 7 pounds until Christmas.
Now we're talking!
Wednesday - 30 minutes bike
Thursday - 30 minutes bike
Friday - nothing :(
Saturday - walking
Sunday - 30 minutes bike
Monday - 30 minutes bike
Tuesday - walking
And the first results are in!!!
I went in for my weighing today and... I lost 1,7 kg this week (3.75 pounds!!)
This challenge is going to be easier thatn I thought.. Not!
Let's make it a bit more challengin, shall we?
Instead of 5 pounds till Christmas, it will be 7 pounds until Christmas.
Now we're talking!
Thursday, November 22, 2007
I want to be a babe
I really really really want to be super hot.
not skinny, but a curvy, hot babe. Like a suicide girl.
Yeah, that would be good.
What do you think? Ok, I'm off to try to find motivation pics...
not skinny, but a curvy, hot babe. Like a suicide girl.
Yeah, that would be good.
What do you think? Ok, I'm off to try to find motivation pics...
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