Alone / Strong

The Bf is away in Spain / Marocco for the next 6 weeks.

Being alone reminds how much he is more than my bf, he is my roommate, my confidante, my best friend. He really knows who I am.

Being alone reminds me who I am.

Being alone reminds me how hard I have worked to be where I am. My close friends will understand - where could I have landed? Junkie? Sex worker? Sex addict? Who knows... Through my battles I always thought something had "saved" me. What I didn't understand then is that what saved me is actually myself. I always attributed my victories to someone else - my bf coming in to my life at a key moment, changing its direction... I changed its direction.

I changed my direction. It takes courage to recognize that you are responsible for your hapiness, whether you're happy... or not.

I will always remember the worst night of my life, which proved to be the night which would bring me the most tools to deal with life and learn to be happy. That night people whom I care dearly about were 500% there for me and I promised myself one thing: that I would use this "bad" experience to help others and turn it into something positive.

Here is my message to anyone reading this: if ever, in your life, something happens, bad, horrible experiences, there is a reason to it that only you can find. You can always turn a bad experience into a learning opportunity: your ATTITUDE determines it all. trust me. You can choose to stop being the victim and become the healer.

your choice.