Busy bee... :)

I have a very full week ahead of me. The bf is in Berlin for a couple of days.

Yesterday it was raining cats and dogs and pretty cold, but we still went to the museum of german history. Sheesh! That place is so big, you seriously need minimum 3 visits to see it all. Yesterday evening we went to a mexican restaurant close to our place. We hadn't done that in a long time and it was really romantic!

In ten days, I'm flying to Cologne for the bs'fs little brother's wedding. It's going to be really exciting!!

Bad vibes

I have no idea why, but it seems like right now there's a shadow hanging over me. It seems like many things that are important to me keep falling apart, people that are important to me aren't there when I need them. Where is the line between egocentric paranoia and solitude?

Why now? Trust me, I'm trying hard to find the silver lining here, to try and understand the deeper meaning of these days, but I'm not seeing it, not getting it yet.

Hmm it seems I still have some soul searching to do.

Acupuncture

I have 3 mini pieces of metal in my right ear and they're going to stay there for 3 weeks... Wonder if this thing works...

Loving Berlin

Berlin was a disappointment for me at the beginning. I guess I was expecting a sort of german Paris, and Berlin is sooooooooo different from Paris. In the last two years, I've learned to love this city, appreciate its charm, its alternative side, its underground side, its anonymous side...

Sometimes I dream of living in a smaller town, somewhere in the mountains or close to the Rhein... But then I think I would miss the new restaurants, new little streets you discover, going to a new cool place you never had noticed. I think I couldn't live in a town where everybody knows everybody. It would creep me out. I need to meet new people, make new experiences, develop further.

Britney Spears Gimme More VMA Performance

I have to say, it wasn't her best performance, but I like the song anyways...

I look like a hamster...

I got my wisdom teeth pulled out yesterday.




Thing is, I'm really afraid of dentists in general. So getting my teeth pulled out... Let's just say I was told four years ago that these wisdom teeth have to go, but it took all this time to make the appointment. It was yesterday afternoon, around 5 pm, and the whole day was horrible. I had hardly slept the night before, had a headache, a stomach ache and had a bit of fever. At work I couldn't concentrate. When I got home before going to the dentist's, I was crying and almost hyperventilating.

All in all, it went well. The dentist was really nice, she gave me a local anesthesia. The procedure itself was pretty quick, but one of the most disgusting this I have ever been through in my whole life. The cracking sounds and taste of blood were horrible. On one side, my tooth was deeper into the bone, and it really hurt when she took it out ( she had a hard time with it). I cried a bit because of the pain on the left one. After it was done, I felt in shock, listened to the dentists recommendations, got up to make a check up appointment at the front desk, and I kept thinking about the cracking sounds my teeth had made, and started feeling nauseous, everything went grey and the dentist had me lay down and put my feet up. I felt like I was going to either puke or faint. Good thing my boyfriend came with me. He took me home, changed me into my pjs and took good care of me. This is what I look like, a real home patient:



I actually thought I was smiling on the picture, but because my mouth was so frozen I couldn't feel it.

Last night the fever was really bad, and my left side ( the difficult tooth) hurt much more than the right one. On my left side, the whole area around the wound hurts, as well as the back of my mouth,my jaw and my throat. The right side is not a problem. I think if both sides had gone well, I would barely have any pain.

I got some painkillers so I slept well last night and this morning the fever is gone. My left side is way more swollen than my right side now, so I look like a really weird hamster.

My boyfriend is taking very good care of me, he bought some baby food (strawberry is the best) and vegetable broth and vegetables he can mash for me to eat. Honestly, I'm not hungry at all. Yesterday I had to force my self to eat something during the day, but I was so nervous. Last night I felt quite traumatised and barely ate anything, and I don't know if I'll eat much today...

All in all, I'm very happy that it's over, but I never want to have a tooth pulled, ever again!!