Nope, I'm not dead yet!
I went home for the holidays, and it was great, stressful fun and hectic!
I thought I would be relieved to come back "home to Berlin, but I find myself REALLY missing Montreal, a lot more than I thought I would...
It was absolutely fantastic seeing my friends and family, even if I did only have a very short period of time to visit with each person.
At the same time, I know I was home "on vacation" so life seems a lot better without uni- or work related problems.
Nevertheless, I feel this hole in my heart whenever I think of Montreal. It just feels like home, my home.
I wish I could have dinner with my parents regularly.
I wish I could just call up my best friend and go out for a beer.
I wish I could meet on the street someone I hadn't seen in 10 years.
Sorry for the pity fest, it's just that this is a lot harder than I thought it would be.
On the other hand, I did settle a lot of emotional business while there and did realize that on certain aspects, I am very happy to have the chance to step back from certain issues and take a deep breath. What can I say, some relationships are just better with some distance.
I guess life'll just put me where I should be when I should be, but in the meantime I miss my "family": the genetical one and the spiritual one.
This is my best friend's daughter and she is the cutest little girl in the entire world. I want one JUST like her when I have kids. I must say it was really hard on the last night, after story time she did not want to go to sleep and started crying saying she didn't want us to go (another friend and I). I must say this little almost three year old has stolen my heart and after that I had to sneak in the kitchen and cry myself.
This is Elvisse, my beloved doggie. I have had her since I was 11 or 12 and she now lives with my mom. It probably was the last time that I saw her and I must say it was also hard to say goodbye.
Why does a flight from Berlin to Montreal cost so much money???